i want a drink
to sink into the amber oblivion
to not feel
to numb the madness in my head
the sadness in my heart
up until a year ago i rarely drank
Now it feels as if it is how i survive
The therapist says i should slow down
So there is no alcohol in my house
But tonight, on this night i wish i could
Not feel not care not know
vanish into the bottom of a glass until the pain when away
I have an open wound that i need to numb
but i need to stay sober,
i need to feel the pain

But god i still want a drink


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