time to go

goHer bags were packed and in the trunk
She stood there looking around wondering what she was leaving behind and if it really mattered.
She had taken her time as she packed. only picking from her closet the things she really loved. Most of her jewlery she left in its case. Pieces he bought her just seemd to heavy around her neck. Her wedding ring sitting on his dresser. She had left a note with it, sell the bands, give the diamond to our daughter.

He knew she was leaving. And they had agreed that he did not want to be there when she left. The house had never felt like hers anyways. The art pieces she loved were at her office. The house was clearly his to decorate. All she wished she could take she would have to get later. Her bed, the monsterous aspen thing she had bought with her first paycheck. And the little desk from her old office. She left everything else to her girl.

She bent down and kissed her little dog goodby. She knew she could not seperate the girls. And they were really his anyways. All four legged things loved him. Besides he talked to them more than he had her anyways. Grabbing her last bag she shut the door. She could hear the wind in the Aspen leaves. And the sound made her cry. She had planted those damn trees. The scent of lilac in the air made her heart jump.
She knew this was the right thing to do, but still in the back of her mind she had always hoped.

Tomorrow she would take some time away. A plane ride to see if her heart had not lied to her. A few days to surrender her all. The future was an unwritten novel, and for once she was the one with the pen in hand. Life was a risk. And if you did not leap you could never know if you would soar or fall. But either way you would not live stuck in the mire. And she refused to be a china doll on the shelf another day.

She tossed the bag in the back seat, cranked the stereo and took a left out of the driveway. Tomorrow was going to be a new day, and a new life. And for once she looked forward to the sunrise.

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7 Comments

  1. hispetitelle said,

    May 16, 2013 at 2:52 pm

    Sending you blessings of peace and joy. I pray that your new life is filled with all the wonderful things that life has to offer.

    • loneyheart said,

      May 16, 2013 at 3:38 pm

      thank you. i am making preperations to make this a reality. Staying is no longer an option for me. It is eating me alive.

  2. loneyheart said,

    May 16, 2013 at 5:26 pm

    then i know no matter what happens i will be ok. Because in you i have been given a gift. I have been set free and shown what love is. One day one step at a time. Free from the dark places and living in the sunlight.

  3. Isabella said,

    May 16, 2013 at 5:39 pm

    I am so very happy for you.

  4. MaríMar said,

    May 16, 2013 at 8:06 pm

    I am sending you big hugs and even bigger well wishes.
    Tough decision to come by… It takes courage to do what’s right for you.
    xoxox

  5. May 16, 2013 at 9:55 pm

    Oh god…she did it …she will never look at you in the same way ever again. She will never be that girl again. The girl who came running back every time he pushed her away. She is gone.

  6. gemini said,

    May 20, 2013 at 10:32 pm

    Oh dear girl..I wish you only the best and every happiness with your special journey Xx


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