Me

Me

feeling as fiery as my hair. Yes I love him… Yes I am confused and working thru it all. Yes I need patience, Yes I need time.
But the decision to stay or to go is his. The choice to wait is his. I am not easy. I will push and test him at every turn. I am no longer hiding. This is me. And I am lunazule, the girl who does not know how to stand and fight.

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12 Comments

  1. obeyme15 said,

    August 26, 2013 at 9:56 pm

    My Beautiful Red Haired Princess, It makes my heart sing to just see a picture of you. All i need to know is if you want me to wait. FUCK I MISS YOU!!!!!

    • loneyheart said,

      August 26, 2013 at 10:08 pm

      if you don’t know my heart by now then you never will. I don’t want you to wait because I ask. I want you to wait because it is what you want. Because you love me enough to let me fight this battle alone. Because you trust that my compass always points home. Because the sun can not live without the moon.
      You know me, I am stubborn and viciously defiant when cornered. I am also the most timid and scared creature on this earth. So… no I will not ask you to wait. You know I hate promises. They are just words.

      • obeyme15 said,

        August 26, 2013 at 10:25 pm

        if i didnt want to wait I wouldnt ask if you want me too. I just want to know your feelings every now and then so I can have some confidence myself. I do trust you, you know that.The moon is nothing without the sun, and i need it just as much. I know not to poke the Badger, i will not corner you or give you ultimatums. Never have never will.So dont tell me to wait, just tell me you love me and still want me

  2. obeyme15 said,

    August 26, 2013 at 10:18 pm

    Im not asking for a fight… just tell me what you want….. That color is amazing!!!

  3. August 28, 2013 at 12:07 am

    Aren’t you a stunner! woooo,

  4. Kayla Lords said,

    August 28, 2013 at 1:34 am

    Gorgeous! Love the hair…yeah, I can easily imagine that you’re feisty as hell… 🙂

    • loneyheart said,

      August 28, 2013 at 2:51 pm

      thanks. I have my days. I really am a Gemini. Part of me is soft and quiet and easily controlled. And the other side of me has fangs and claws and will kick the ass of anyone who dares try and tell her what to do. It makes for a challenging life.

  5. Gwennie said,

    August 28, 2013 at 4:28 pm

    Great picture…I love your hair…you look amazing. *smiles*

  6. gemini said,

    August 30, 2013 at 4:00 pm

    As a red headed Gemini I have the two sides you talk of too and it can be very challenging at times. I can be stubbornly independent, but with a need to be held close and mastered. Lovely pic. Xx

    • loneyheart said,

      August 30, 2013 at 4:54 pm

      I am struggling with the difference between being Mastered and being Controlled. I am finding it hard to separate the two in my head, especially with the physical distance between him and I. And my emotional issues in reguards to both of our marriages. I am the one actively in the world of Divorce and he seems to be struggling with the leaving part. It all just makes things cloudy in my head and my heart

      • gemini said,

        September 11, 2013 at 11:43 am

        The physical distance can be so hard, I too know that and have wavered with it. Only time will tell dear loneyheart. You and he need to give yourself time and all will be revealed in the end.

        I struggle with being controlled from a distance very much and for now me and my love have decided to take each day at a time and let our love grow naturally rather than being led by the D/s element, but we know our love is getting stronger with our without it.

        We hope one day we can enjoy and indulge our D/s sides when we unite.

        Wherever your path takes you I hope you end up in a happy place.

        Love Gem x


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