This year

snow flakes fall outside my window in soft silence

i spent my morning wrapped in your loving arms and remembered

Life is a sweet and wonderful gift

You have filled it all with sunshine and warmth

Thank you my King for loving me like you do

For giving me this family that i so longed for

For embracing my kids like you have

For happily taking on the title of Grandpa from my grandson

For making me laugh and cry and feel so alive

I have been blessed every moment of this past year

And look forward to many more by your side

All of my love and deepest devotion

Your Queen




White-Wolf-wolves-33748411-737-552    we are all here for the same reason. We need to express. To find a way to share from our deepest places our grief our love our loss and our most perfect happiness. It is here we met Marcus. We followed his words and accepted his praise when he gave it, howls, licks and all.

In this moment we sit here stunned by his tragic loss and the suffering of his family. And as a community of word smiths all we can do is write our grief. Share our happy memories and send abundant prayers to his family. He was admired and loved by all. And we want his lady wolf to know that. For sometimes there is nothing better than to know how others lives were touched by someone loved so deeply and taken far to soon. Felicia, know that he was deeply admired and that we share a little of your grief, and we would all take a piece of it from you if we could to soften your sorrow.

May we all continue to honor his memory by being better people. By loving those around us a little deeper. And by never stopping the words. Because there is magic in them.

Farewell Sir Wolf. You made us all howl at the moon and we will never look at it the same again.

At least now i know why my local wolf pack was in such turmoil last night. They were spreading the word. The pack is one wolf short.


This morning i heard a song that reminded me of our lost friend. I wanted to take a moment to stop and kindly remember him and his dear wife. I strive daily to show the depth of love these two shared so openly. Your words are missed. I hope that your lady wolf has found some solace and that on a good night in the moon light she still hears your howls. 11/25/2015

Waiting on perfect

Her hands shook with fear and excitement

Her breath seemed to have stopped long ago

She watched and waited as he stepped up to the line

Just two more and he would be there

That silly joke rang in her head like cathedral bells

She wished she had never made it

But in this moment she wondered and hoped

But No. it was not yet meant to be

And as he came back to her side his eyes brimmed

And his lips uttered a soft, I’m sorry

She smiled at him with love and admiration

How could she not love this man

For who else would try so hard to attain perfection

not for himself, but for her

One day he will bowl that perfect game

And one day he will take her hand in union

they don’t really need to be on the same day

But she will wait, because perfection is worth waiting for

And he is perfect to her


(We made that joke when we first started dating.  Bowl that perfect 300 and i will marry you.And more than once in the last year he has been ever so close. Every time my heart leaps. This last weekend it nearly stopped beating when he was on the edge of that perfect game. I love watching him when he is in that zone, i swear he his 10 feet tall in those magical moments.)

Honest expectations.


The holidays are always full of wonderment. We love to give and have family and friends around. But reality is different. We are all spread to thin. Trying to make happiness in times of challenge and change. I have stepped away from fairytale hopes and embraced the honest expectations of life. It is not rainbows and chocolate covered kisses. it is waking up in the arms of a good man. It is seeing my daughters smile when she talks about her first home. It is the joy on families faces when they open gifts i took all year to buy.It i hearing my little man call me Grandma. That is the joy in my life.

Someone asked me what i wanted. And it was an easy thing to answer. Time. I want a .50 appointment book with 2 things written in it. We won a gift certificate for a dance lesson. I want that lesson scheduled and in the book. And we have been trying for months to just take a night or 2 at the hot springs. I want that weekend written in the book. Just my king and i, No phones. Just us. Life needs us in so many places that sometimes we get put on the back burner. I want that time, the space that is just him and i in each others arms. I have no doubt that he will make them happen. Never have i been so sure of anything like i am of this mans love. I see it every time he looks at me with those deep swimming eyes.With every time he grabs my hand. In every tender kiss. This is love and life and it is honest and true.